I

1 Lord, you were favorable to your land; you restored the fortunes of Jacob.


Blood and Gold

You did so much for this land / Kept us close, brushed back the sand /Gold and blood flow through our veins / What we lost has been regained

Milk and honey / drown our sorrow / we will follow / til tomorrow / You were faithful / let us praise you / We’ll grow fat / forget the days when

Things were bitter, we drew near / Faith from weakness, joy from fear / Measuring your / favor in these /shining things we / pray will save us


II + III

2 You forgave the iniquity of your people; you covered all their sin. 3 You withdrew all your wrath; you turned from your hot anger.


A Year

My God, it's been such a year here  / We hated you / My God, and what you did was fearsome / A burning arrow

Who knows if it would all have happened / Regardless / We were reminded what your wrath was / A withering. / A withering.

You took away the flames you set / Only you could have undone it / A glance aside or rain in the desert / The branding steel is gone forever

An ocean cool that seeks to temper / Will fall from clouds less dense than I remember  / The angry sun in peace descending / Will mercy follow anger’s ending?


IV

4 Restore us again, O God of our salvation,and put away your indignation toward us!


Promise

What mystery, what love so cruel / So trusting, are we all fools? / Such favor, it feels naive / That you’d break our slavery

We were wrong, and we know you don’t lie / Please restore our hearts and our eyes dry / Put away your anger and your threat / We are weak, but we will serve you yet

Songs from pain now fill the room / Stones start rolling back from tombs / Life has brought us to our knees  / Simply hoping we’ll be freed

If your love runs as deep as they say / If your hold on our souls cannot break / And if you have chosen us for more / All we ask from you is to restore / Do not keep us in the dark for long / Sitting in the silence feels so wrong /Do not be so deaf to all our cries / Let the world see favor in your eyes


V + VI

5 Will you be angry with us forever? Will you prolong your anger to all generations? 6 Will you not revive us again, that your people may rejoice in you?


My Hand to Sever

What’s there to say? What’s there to do? / Where can we go? Who else but you? / Your silence now, cuts deep as hell / the sinking heart, the dark motel

And will you feel anger forever? Should I make an effort / to prove to you the depths of my re-morse? My hand to sever?

According to the law you gave, we have no power ourselves to save / How is it fair to blame our falls on something we can’t change at all?

And will you give us a pardon? Our prison warden / remains our flesh and bone, Camera obscura, the river jordan


VII

7 Show us your steadfast love, O Lord, and grant us your salvation.


Set Up Wrong

Give me everything that I could ever want / Yes you tell me without you I am lost / I’d understand it if I were responsible to / Do the right thing all the time, not mess up / Maybe a few mistakes allowed for good luck / But painting us from the beginning with prison stripes is

Very confusing, dependence is not a strong suit of mine / Within this system we’re infants, so lost and alone / We began with this chronic condition of hubris and death / We’re just set up wrong

Tell me everything that I could want to hear / Reassure me that you’re stronger than my fears / I really like when you turn water into wine / It’s very nice of you to try to save us all / When I am feeling lost then I’ll give you a call / But I think until then I’m gonna do

Every thing that I want to, it’s like thanks but no thanks / I don’t need your help to have fun, you’ve, got so many rules, but / I’ll be back when everything’s done cuz you’ve taught me that my heart is set up wrong

It comes down to whether I trust you, or not, and do I / believe your story about makes humans crazy and broken / and sad, and are you the real solution for everything that / Is set up wrong


VIII + IX


8 Let me hear what God the Lord will speak, for he will speak peace to his people, to his saints; but let them not turn back to folly. 9 Surely his salvation is near to those who fear him, that glory may dwell in our land.


I Am Listening

I am listening I am listening I am listening I am listening I am listening


X + XI

10 Steadfast love and faithfulness meet; righteousness and peace kiss each other. 11 Faithfulness springs up from the ground, and righteousness looks down from the sky.


Glorious Thunder

Everything is coming together / I can see it more than ever / Things falling into place and uh-opening up gates / It’s growing, and I’m glad we’re embracing / The water is awake and the sky is made of lace / we’re floating, surrounded by space, yeah

The world looks dark but still it moves / I feel us going upward / In love and peace all things improve /Hearing that glorious thunder

We’re beaten with our failure / We hear it, every murder / But just because we know all the ways justice is slow / Don’t panic, doesn’t mean the pain’s forgotten / The wear on the world shows, and the icy wind it blows, but / We’ll heal it, though it feels that we’re drowning


XII

12 Yes, the Lord will give what is good, and our land will yield its increase.


Marching West

When will stop begging for more / I’m tired of marching west / Looking in mirrors, we are not poor / we own the rest / Feeling disaster approach our house / we strike the other / Willing amnesia to erase doubt / we killed our mother

All of this land is mine / God told me / God told me / All of this land is mine / God chose me / get off of it

This is the legacy that we leave / To explain away mass graves / Heaven instructed us to go save / They’re better off this way / Mind splitting open we push it down / We can’t confront this shame / Say to your mirror: “it’s all over now, aren’t you glad times have changed”

All that you have is mine / God told me / God told me / All that you have is mine / God chose me to profit / All of this land is mine / My fathers controlled it / None of this is a crime / a joy to behold it

Give it up, you no longer own the place where you were born, your ancestors are gone and so are you / What are you gonna do? Give it up, give it up, give it up. / Give it up, we do not even know just what we stole, and in the process we gave up our souls / Within us bones corrode, Oh Jesus, our humanity, we gave it up


XIII

13 Righteousness will go before him and make his footsteps a way.


No!

I’m afraid of what comes next / I am tired but I find my steps / I loved my certainty / But even better being and true and free

I used to think that I needed / Someone above holding my hand / That giving up all I wanted / Would open up space to function / At higher planes of perfection / Where I would learn endless lessons / And I would be held forever / No earthly love could be better / That my desires were all idols / That I deserved the tears I cried / That life is just a passing moment / It’s almost better to die

No!

I’ve learned my heart’s not dead / Never was no matter what they said

So fucking glad that I made it / I thought about other exits / But there was still light inside me / I trusted love let it guide me / I worked through pain, shame and poison / Started to feel more alive / Undoing years of compressing / Trying to learn not to hide / And still today I am working / To love myself as I am / Freer than I’ve ever felt / Ask me to go back I’ll say

No!